#I am the fool

[amphibianaday]

day 1730

[hellagator]

Hey I can’t believe I forgot to post this awesome commission I did for @transalphamale !!!

[dynamite124]

I am such a fool...

Maybe I'm just blind or I'm always on always on a hill, but no, I am a fool to not notice this... Nebarra is a short king.

[camarilla-intuition]

I was doing more reading about ADHD symptoms last night and like thought to myself how lucky I am that I don’t struggle with rejection sensitive dysphoria…… and then I remembered I used to literally envision people being mad/disappointed at me as being stabbed with swords……….

[saetoru]

THE CHAUFFEUR ACTIVITIES CONTINUE IM SICK.

[whiskyarts]

also the second i read 'hugo' and 'clown' in the same sentence this is what i thought of like, immediately

Real Donella and Hugo interaction

[my-brainhurts07]

I can add a title? Cool.

I feel uncertain with things, what is my goal? Am I doing this right? Is this even worth it? So many questions that leave me feeling queasy and jittery. PLEASE, the jitters are too real, I'll shake with anxiety over anything if I'm in the mood for it (In the mood for it, that's not right, I'm never in the mood for it) It's actually an awful feeling and I'm feeling it now, my body is on edge and not in that way you freaks. I hate that joke, lets find a new one folks. (I don't have strong feelings towards the matter in actuality, I'm just being an ass) I love using the word ass in the sense of using it as a descriptor for someone, I will NEVER refer to your behind as an ass, it's too much for me. I think I'm taking this too far but that's part of my experience, I take things too far. I'm too close to being un-okay so I'll be mad in a sane way before I do anything rash. Shaving your head, people often find it freeing. Me, I've done it three times, maybe 5 if you count other really short haircuts I've had. Anyway every time I made the rash decision to shave my head, I felt so awful in myself and I see why I did it, to give myself a valid reason to hate myself. Isn't that curious? Why do we do that? I've spent so much time worrying how I'm perceived, how ridiculous. I mean sure it's a common thing but as I mentioned, I take things too far so I'd let this worry stop me from leaving the house. How sad, well I'm past that for the most part and at this point I have no shame. Yet I am so shameful, interesting how I can feel those two things all at once. Maybe I'm a liar, yes that seems true, I was a big liar as a kid. Not in a serious manner, just little twisting's of the truth. I'd lie to my therapists because I wasn't necessarily doing top notch. But we'd been working on me for a year and in my heart I feel much the same but how could I say that and not discredit their hard work? I'll lie and say "yes, I'm actually seeing this progress" Anyway, I must of done a good acting job because they sent me off into the world, so I am without guidance. I read the discharge papers and had a laugh because it didn't align with me too much. Lying is bad, we shouldn't lie about how we feel, but I felt bad about not improving. So, it's been months without them and yes I feel better in some ways but I still do all the bad habits that I originally started seeing them for, that's usually the case with me, I just manage to hide them better and that's taken as improvement. I am what stands in my way, I am the block in the road, I will be my own downfall, I always have been. This is weird, I am weird, I have always been weird and I think I'll always be seen as a weirdo. That always makes me feel the slightest bit ill, knowing that I'm not regular, that I never can be. I never can be for I've made permanent altercations to myself that will make me the fool. A realisation of mine is that I'm an oversharer, that's humiliation right there. This whole thing is a humiliating moment of tmi. I know that I'm not doing this right, I've been going about life all wrong since I was 13, my life stopped then and it's been hard to press play on it again. Anyway I'm going to throw up because my body is fuelled with anxious energy, if you read this far, that's unusual, it's bonkers if someone even began to read this. I'll be doing this often I feel, I am full of thoughts and I'm odd enough to put them on the internet so there's a permanent record of the foolish person I am. That's all.

[supnerds]

I would be the worst sports commentator/camera person. every time the players pull a feint to fool the other team I get fooled as well I’m just like a dog getting tricked by the fake throw I go oh the ball has been thrown that way yes of course only to get confused when it doesn’t show up and suddenly everyone’s cheering and im over here like wait where did the ball go

[johannamation]

Why did I just spend 3 hours inking a page using outdated thumbnails--instead of the updated script, literally open right in front of me--causing me to have to redo that whole page?

I'll tell you why:

[2814-2]

let him sleep.

[dragondice42]

This fooled me for a good 5 seconds. Clown hours 'round here

hey wanna know a secret

Read more

[rythyme]

me when i fucking Boop you

[canisbeanz]

Silly doodle bc it was the first thing I thought of when I saw Pomni.

[carefreefc]

i made gundo my captain last second bc jamal only got 2 points last match day .

[troblsomtwins829]

Write, you fool!

If you're reading this...

go write three sentences on your current writing project.

[helianskies]

is it so fucking hard to let me know you're going to be late, or to send me an update about where you are or what's happening, if you're meant to be coming over to my place and YOU told me what time you would be here for? i told you, i have shit to be doing, i have coursework, i don't really have time to see anyone right now, but since you're suddenly around you wanted to know if i was on campus (no!) and then, oh, well, i'm going back home this eve passing by where you live... so close yet so far... so i invite you for a cup of tea because i feel like you're fishing for it, and you insist 'it'll really have to be quick because i need to get back'. meanwhile i'm sitting here trying to do coursework but not wanting to get too into it because i know you're meant to be coming and it'll cut off my work flow, and i don't want that to happen if i'm at the crux of a translation. and it's been half an hour. and you haven't sent me a text. a 'sorry, running late!'. you were dropping off a laptop because you've resigned, and that was meant to be it. your own words. that was an hour ago. i am at my wits end with this fucking friendship of ours, because it is really starting to feel like 'take take take'.